Life As A Quest

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I am burdened by positive motivations. I am convinced that I’m on this planet to spread peace, deepen truth, and create joy. Unfortunately details get in the way. 

This is my daily to-do list:

1. Live fully

2. Work for the greatest good.

3. Make family life about levity as well as empathy.

4. Minimize my addiction to books (or at least pretend to      listen to people who interrupt me while I’m reading).

5. Emphasize creativity, ethical truth, and deeper spiritual meaning in all I  do.

6. Floss

7. Oh yeah, stand up straight.

See what I mean? Where is the time for all that bigger peace, truth, and joy stuff?  When am I gonna change the world? 

Other things get in the way too: the pesky allure of social networking, earning bucks to pay bills, making cheese and herbal tinctures, doing laundry, walking dogs, watching foreign films, plus lying awake nights thinking about my quest. I let these things block my life’s work all the time. 

This path I have taken, entertaining grandiose visions while submerging myself in mundane necessities, is contradictory but comfortable.  I’m too comfortable with those contradictions. 

I’ve been known to blame this on my parents. They were the loving, nurturing types who encouraged their offspring to believe they could accomplish anything.  Anything?  That’s a heavy burden to carry around.

I’ve blamed society, the society that promises success to those willing to sacrifice important things like relationships and health. 

I’ve blamed the Do What You Love, The Money Will Follow mentality which deluded me into believing that I could work at saving the world, get a paycheck, and still be home in time to make a healthful dinner brimming with those all important omega 3 fatty acids. 

I’ve taken refuge behind my theory about stages in life, this being my Busy With Everything stage and my Noble Heroine stage coming up at some nebulous time in the future. 

But I’m on to my newest excuse—–beneficial thought waves. I run errands, but my mind is sending loving energy to those suffering from fear or pain or despair. I sit through a meeting, but I am praying for the wholeness of the planet. I do laundry, but I am meditating on Unity of All. 

I remain convinced I’m here to carry out my quest, yet how much is still undone weighs on me. 

Well, that explains my bad posture.

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First published Geez Magazine

About Laura Grace Weldon

Laura Grace Weldon is a writer and editor, perhaps due to an English professor's scathing denunciation of her writing as "curious verbiage." She's the author of "Free Range Learning," a handbook of natural learning and "Tending," a poetry collection. (lauragraceweldon.com) She's working on her next book, "Subversive Cooking" (subversivecooking.com). She lives on Bit of Earth Farm where she is a barely useful farm wench. Although she has deadlines to meet she often wanders from the computer to preach hope, snort with laughter, cook subversively, talk to chickens and cows, discuss life’s deeper meaning with her surprisingly tolerant offspring, sing to bees, hide in books, walk dogs, concoct tinctures, watch foreign films, and make messy art.
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6 Responses to Life As A Quest

  1. I love this! Looking at your to-do list and hearing your approach to life’s mundane moments, it sounds like you ARE working towards your life’s purpose! Keep up the good work…and thanks for inspiring us along the way :)

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  2. Beverley says:

    Seems to me Laura that everything you do is achieving your goal – you imbue everything you do with your goal of peace, truth and joy. In moments of conflict you seek peace. In all things you seek truth. And, upon reflection, you experience the joy of every moment. This comes across through your writing. :-)

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  3. sarah says:

    That’s one heck of a daily to-do list! I’m convinced my Life Quest, my duty to this world, is to be lazy (so others may prove themselves through hard work), be grumpy (so others have a reason to rise above) and be greedy (so others may know the joys that come from doing without).
    ;-)

    Seriously though, loved your post and so agree with your perspective.

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    • Laura Weldon says:

      Ah, but you shine a light on the true benefits of the lazy, grumpy, greedy Life Quest! So true. Our awareness is often cracked open by those who expose our own shadows. I keep telling myself this about cars cutting me off, Wall Street types manipulating the economy, and froth-at-the-mouth pundits.

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